Selena Gomez has finally spoken about the chaos of the past couple of years and the pain it caused on her. Gomez reflected on reaching rock bottom in a candid interview with Amy Schumer for Interview magazine; how her personal life was out of reach at one point; and why people don’t need to worry about her now.
For the unversed, from 2010 to 2018, Gomez publicly endured a complicated on-off relationship with Justin Bieber — one she later described as emotionally abusive in a January interview with the NPR. Bieber and Gomez ended things in spring 2018 and then dated Hailey Baldwin again in June. In July 2018, they got engaged and married in September 2018.
In addition, Gomez has suffered from lupus, underwent a kidney transplant that became a matter of “life or death” in 2017, and took numerous breaks from the spotlight to seek counseling for her mental health. Earlier this month she admitted to Miley Cyrus that during one of her visits, she had been diagnosed as bipolar. She thought about it as much as she could: “I wanted to know everything about it, and it took the fear away,” Gomez revealed to Cyrus.
Schumer questioned Gomez why she would agree on Instagram to share her personal life. Gomez told Schumer this is because she decided to take back control of the narrative of her life.
“My intention was never to become a tabloid,” Gomez started. “So when things kind of happened that way, it got out of control. And then I was like, ‘Wait, none of this is true.’ The way the media has sometimes tried to explain things has made it sound really bad when in reality there’s nothing wrong with the fact that I needed to go away or that I fell in love. I had to start opening up because people were taking away my narrative and it was killing me. I’m so young and I’m going to keep changing, and no one has the right to tell me how my life’s going,” Gomez said.
Schumer asked Gomez about the moment she thought she was getting back after her heartbreak with Justin Bieber and could pen “Lose You to Love Me.”
“I wrote it at the beginning of last year, and had just gotten out of treatment,” Gomez recalled. “It was a moment when I came back and I was like, ‘I’m ready to go into the studio with people I trust and start working on songs.’ There was an air around it where people were very happy because it was like I was going to finally be me. But I didn’t necessarily see it that way at the time. When I wrote the song, I was basically saying that I needed to hit rock-bottom to understand that there was this huge veil over my face.”