Who knew Taylor Swift, like most of us, had body image issues?
We all know Taylor for always looking perfect with a touch of class, but she finally reveals what she had to go through behind the scenes to get this “perfect look”.
The Cats star revealed that she developed an eating disorder over comments about how her figure appeared. “I didn’t know if I was going to feel comfortable with talking about body image and talking about the stuff I’ve gone through in terms of how unhealthy that’s been for me — my relationship with food and all that over the years,” she revealed to a leading news portal.
“But the way that Lana (director) tells the story, it really makes sense. I’m not as articulate as I should be about this topic because there are so many people who could talk about it in a better way. But all I know is my own experience. And my relationship with food was exactly the same psychology that I applied to everything else in my life: If I was given a pat on the head, I registered that as good. If I was given a punishment, I registered that as bad,” Swift explained.
“I remember how, when I was 18, that was the first time I was on the cover of a magazine. And the headline was like ‘Pregnant at 18?’ And it was because I had worn something that made my lower stomach look not flat. So I just registered that as a punishment,” she further added.
“And then I’d walk into a photoshoot and be in the dressing room and somebody who worked at a magazine would say, ‘Oh, wow, this is so amazing that you can fit into the sample sizes. Usually we have to make alterations to the dresses, but we can take them right off the runway and put them on you!’ And I looked at that as a pat on the head. You register that enough times, and you just start to accommodate everything towards praise and punishment, including your own body,” she revealed.
“I think I’ve never really wanted to talk about that before, and I’m pretty uncomfortable talking about it now,” the songstress added.. “But in the context of every other thing that I was doing or not doing in my life, I think it makes sense to have it in the film,” she said.
The documentary also features pictures of Taylor’s unhealthy weight loss during her eating disorder back in 2015 for 1989 versus pictures of her healthy look during her Reputation tour in 2018.
Talking about her disorder in the film, Taylor reveals, Taylor reveals, “I thought that I was supposed to feel like I was going to pass out at the end of a show, or in the middle of it. Now I realize, no, if you eat food, have energy, get stronger, you can do all these shows and not feel (enervated). I’m okay with the fact that I’m a size 6 instead of a size double-zero.”
Taylor had a double-zero figure in 2015 and whenever anyone showed concern over it she revealed she’d say, “‘What are you talking about? Of course I eat….I exercise a lot.’ And I did exercise a lot. But I wasn’t eating.”