Machine Gun Kelly’s new Hulu documentary, Life in Pink, tells the story of a terrible night in July 2020, not long after his father passed away and one year after the release of his album Hotel Diablo. The defeat made MGK’s struggle with despair and substance abuse worse. “I wouldn’t leave my [hotel] room,” the singer says in the film. “I started getting really, really, really dark.
Megan went to Bulgaria to shoot a movie and I started getting this really wild paranoia. Like, I kept getting paranoid that someone was gonna come and kill me.” MGK, whose real name is Colson Baker, claims that he “just f snapped” that day while sleeping with a shotgun next to his bed. He says, “I called Megan. I was like, ‘You aren’t here for me.’ I’m in my room and I’m, like, freaking out on her. Dude, I put the shotgun in my mouth. And I’m yelling on the phone and like the barrels in my mouth.
Kelly added, “And I go to cock the shotgun and the bullet, as it comes back up, the shell just get jammed. Megan’s like dead silent.” He reveals in the movie that the near-death experience made him understand he needed to quit doing drugs for Fox and his daughter, Casie, as well. Despite the fact that the movie doesn’t state if he was using drugs at the time, he claims, “I was like, I need to kick the drugs for real this time.'”
After that evening, Fox ‘became the sun’ to him, according to MGK. He continues, “That’s what helps me write those songs. Cause it’s just like every fairy tale that they never told you in school… the passion between us is just otherworldly.” Life in Pink by Machine Gun Kelly is now available to view on Hulu. The movie provides a behind-the-scenes look at MGK’s rise to stardom as well as the obstacles he overcame on the personal and professional fronts.